Bianchi certainly knew she was loved and will always be loved, and that's all that matters.


~

When their mom Chimera stopped taking care of them due to her unknown sickness, we force-fed her kittens with milk for a few weeks until they could eat dry food.

Bianchi with her sibilings Heikki and Leighton during (syringe) feeding time
Bianchi slept with her siblings most of the time.


Bianchi with her big brother Alonso
Meanwhile, she also loved her alone time.


But she would still hang out with her siblings a lot, especially in the kitchen.


She also loved staying in random places.






She was always on time when we call the gang for breakfast or dinner. 

(L-R) Heikki, Bianchi, Kamui, Alonso, Keyan, Leighton and Sergi
Missing in photo: Chimera and Raikko (Joly wasn't here yet)
The time she had to stay upstairs because it flooded the whole afternoon.


Aside from eating and sleeping, she also had part-time acting with the sibs. It didn't work out for all three of them, but she thought it was okay since they got free food. 


Striking a pose with sissy Leighton


This was her normal face every.single.day. 


Always hungry
She fancied my bag to sleep on. She probably knew that it was new so she had to sleep on it as soon as I got it. 


Getting sick

Bianchi had a good appetite, hence being overweight. She didn't show any symptoms of sickness ever since she was born. But just recently, we noticed that she hadn't been eating for days so we rushed her to the vet. I brought her home for observation, but it got worse and she hated her antibiotics.

After four days, she was diagnosed with liver failure and jaundice. The doctors said this case is usually irreversible, but we still confined her at the veterinary hospital, hoping that she'll get through it. I was relieved because at least she'd get all her antibiotics through the dextrose. We strongly believe that this was caused by something she accidentally ate outside the house.

First night at the vet with dextrose
On her fourth day, the doctor advised to just get her since she's more active at home so we decided to check her out and start her maintenance medicine, vitamins and prescription food.

On her first day back home, she was weaker than normal but she still ate breakfast, peed in her litter box and even walked around and outside the house. She was truly a fighter!

I knew deep inside she wouldn't last long anymore, but we still fought it together. At the same time, I kept telling her how much we loved and will always love her, and that it's fine if she was ready to go. AND SHE CRIED and my heart crushed into a million pieces.

Sweat and tears were all worth it for you
On the night of February 2nd, we knew she'd go anytime soon that's why we made her beddings comfortable as much as possible.

In situations like this, I'd go away because it hurts to see someone I love like this. It was heart-wrenching, but Bani reminded me that Bianchi needed me to be there for her so we stayed with her the whole night. (I don't know what I'd do without you bubs)

At 2 a.m., she even stood up to drink water but she couldn't. She tried to go into her litter box to pee but she fell, so I carried her back to the rug and that was where she peed. I kept convincing myself that she was going any minute now. She got up again to sleep next to the door. She looked contented so we let her be.

Bianchi's last night - 2 February 2017
I woke up with a heavy heart thinking she's already gone, but no, she was still on the exact same spot next to the door. I left the room to do some errands and to heat up her food.

At around 10 a.m., Kuya Ernest and I carried her downstairs. At this point, she was at her weakest, but I still tried to feed her. When I reached to her mouth with a syringe full of slurry Liver Care prescription food, she vomited and gasped for breath. I said to myself, eto na, mag ready ka na.

Instead of crying out loud, I just told her calmly, "It's okay baby, you can let go now. I love you so much. Everyone does."

I brought her to my dad's room. I left with the lights off and after a few minutes, I came back and she was gone.

Bani carried her lifeless body to a box and put it under our small altar.


Here was Chimera seeing her daughter for the last time.

A heartbreaking moment
 At 1 p.m. we buried her at PAWS.

Bianchi en route to Rainbow Bridge where there's unlimited food, toys and catnip
I honestly don't know what hurts the most – watching her suffer for almost two weeks or burying and seeing her for the last time. But at the end of the day, I know there's no more pain and suffering.

All I have to remind myself every now and then is that she lived a good life: she grew up with a lot of cats around her, she was well-fed, and she had an enormous space to live in.

I'll be forever grateful to have had you in my life, Bianchi. Now that you're gone, I know the rest of the Azure cats gained a guardian angel watching over them. Thank you for fighting until the very end. I love you so much.